I don't want this to be true.
My little everything. I'm still hoping that this is just a nightmare. That suddenly I will wake up and you are here again. Smiling and laughing. Complaining about your looks although you are beautiful. Making up a lame excuse to make chocolate cake. Singing to Foo Fighters and the soundtrack of One tree hill. Crying over stupid boys. Take the first bath in the ocean in April. Fighting with me over nothing. I want to argue with you again, just so that I can tell you that I love you when we become friends again. And tell you; we are going to be friends always and forever. I know that I will see you again some day, angel. They all say that I will. But I want to see you now, right in this moment. I need you. I need your words, your loving hugs and your smile. Your smile lit up the darkest days and could make rain and storms into sunshine. I don't want this to be true! I really need you. Everytime I write about you, I cry. The tears just wouldn't stop comming. When you left, I lost a part of myself. It's still not to believe that I will never see you on earth again!
You were my angel here on earth and now you are my angel in heaven, but I want you here. I don't know how I'm going to cope with this. Without you. You know very well that you were the reason for me smiling. That you were the reason that I made it trough my first year in high school. That you were the only person who could make me laugh so hard that I started crying, now I'm only crying because I miss you. Please come back. I miss so much that my heart hurts. Everyone misses you. Everything has changed since you left. I'm so scared. The world is so big. We both thought that. But you and I, we were going to fight over our fears and travel around it together. What am I going to do with the world now? Travel alone? I don't think so... Who is going to be my maid of honour when I'm getting married? You are the only one who can handle me when I'm stressed out. You are my best friend. And you will always be. You may be in heaven, but I have you safe in my heart. Your memory live in me and all the other people who loves you, and trust me, we are many and we have many great memories. We remember the fantastic time we got to share with you. We smile and cry when we think about you and your crazy sence of humor.
Sweety, I hope that you are having fun and that you are happy wherever you are. You deserve to be happy. So I hope with all my heart that you are. I love you always and forever. Jeg elsker deg for alltid, Maria. Vi sees i himmelen.